Short-lived

Bang bang be right back!

This too shall pass

This is a photo-less post.

I'm back here because I want to post words. My tumblr skin is a bitch Idk what did I change now my words are super light grey and I don't want to edit it every time i post. I think I even forgot about 30 day challenge. okay shall do it in a while.

So Saturday was Chenppp's attempt to win 2thousand$ at Novena's Velocity Urban Attack/Challenge & SSQQ's birthday celebration at Marina Barrage at night!

Went with Char-lot-teh only (Zan & T couldn't make it D:)  and we had the best seats in da house yo! At the Kopitiam's window seats!! Talk about bird's eye view (Y) We were so eggcited for Chenppp that we even had a board for him hahahaha i think his friends were all teasing him lololol. Char & I killed time by playing cards, daidee/blackjack/indian poker/younameitweplayedit! Damn hilarious!! Char, you can trust me okay!! HAHAHA Then, when it was his turn, we both got really eggcitedddd!! I took vid & Char took peeks  ^^ He was the fastest among all the peepz in front of him and most after him with 46.10secs!!! The thing is, if he won, he have to treat Char & I B&J's!! HEHEHEHEHE

Went to find him to congratulate him & got cake after that for SSQQ then we stayed on to watch finished the rest of the guys because it was left with the fastest people and it was really getting eggciting!!! We were disappointed at the end as the fastest people even got better timings than Cppp! ): But he still came in fourth!!!!! 4TH EH!!! Not bad not bad!!!! Join next year! Char & I are your number 1 fans HAHAHHHAHAHAHAHA

Then I mrt-ed to Marina Bay and Tay got on at Raffles Place! She called me when she got on the train and then I realized we both are on the same train hahahah

Met da birthday girl, Jaime & Jong after Tay & I stared at these 3 girlies for some time wondering is it them or not cus one of them looked like sy!! :O hahahahha! Gave da the birthday girl her birthday present which is super epic-ly funny because of that particular photo I painstakingly picked to print it out, the one of SSQQ & MOKW we took during Mooncake Fest. last year in the midst of O's to play sparklers and light lanterns! Good times good times!!

So basically we just cam-whored/talked/flew kite(they did, i didn't) and then when the guys came they came with MATS & DRINKS & CUPS!! (THANK YOU JER FOR THE MATS!!!)

Then we played poker cards/flew some more kite until the kite string broke and it flew far far away ): SSQQ weren't there when the kite flew far far away, she went to get Pizza with Cheng! So Jong & Jaime went to get another kite so we can deco nicely again for da birthdaygurlz93 ^^

Ate pizza, star-shaped hash browns, chicken wings, garlic bread from PizzaHut (duh!)! There were tons of bugs flying around ugh!! Then this ant landed on the card board and I screamed KILL THE ANT JEREMY KILL THE ANT!!!!!!!! when Jer was so far away HAHAHAHAHA i didn't even realise I shouted his name!??!?!?!?! SSQQ was laughing so hard omg i fail -.-

We tried to play with sparklers too but then the security guard/policewoman warned us not to do it?? Said sth about us kena fine? I never knew we can't play with sparklers there? Oh well we played about 10 sticks (one person one stick hahahaha) IT WAS GOOD WELL IT LASTED ANYWAYZ!!!!

Then after that we played even more daidee while some flew kite and then we lighted the cake before da birthday gurl came back! So it was already lit-ted(?) up when she came back :D

Took tons of self-timer shots to get group shots! So awesome :D

Left about 11pm and we decided to all cabbed home since we can all share and then it was so late alr. I want to bitch about cab drivers but my batt is running low ): Anw the cab I called didn't come and thank god there was this cab that was available, phew!!!

Basically it was a lot of fun catching up with 4e2 peepz + Tay!!! LOVE YA ALL VERY MUCH XOXO!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SSQQ!! :D <3 Everything I want to say is in the long love letter heh heh heh heh :P

x x x

Foolishly

"Sometimes, you just can’t tell anybody how you really feel. Not because you don’t know why. Not because you don’t know your purpose. Not because you don’t trust them. But because you can’t find the right words to make them understand." 

This is how I feel towards blogging here at Blogger (okay even at Tumblr or anywhere else or to anyone else currently) - not putting the words together right. All we ever need is some

I don't know why is it so hard to express what i'm feeling now. It is of all sorts. Seriously.

x I miss Miaowen so damn friggin' much! ): It is killing me one way or another knowing I could have met you on the 16th ); I call this "never-meet-up-withdrawal symptoms" & I'm suffering from it quite badly!!

x I miss Schw, Huishannie, Clarencecjd, Wonglr, WalterMelonWong & the rest of the gang (whut, left with Ian? HAHA)!! It is definitely NOT a holiday if I don't see them ):

x I miss Darl' V even though I just saw her last Thursday and hopefully this coming Sat!! :D :*

x I miss my gurlfrenzxsz SSQQ, Cheng, Ty, Jong, Jaime, Jy Amanda Pantat but will be seeing (some of) them on Sat to celebrate SSQQ's birthday @ Marina Barrage @ Night!

x I miss being in the same class as Yayah!! ): Even though we're in the same school, we haven't been bumping into one another at all ):

x I miss Tay & D!! IT IS D'S HOLS NOW & its the last june holidays she'll ever get why are we not meeting up?!?!?! okay deep down i really know why its just ranting-in-process!!

x Linkin Park has been a solace these days, idk why. \:

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There are more that i want to say, but as the blockquote says, i just can't find the right words. ):

x x x

Tumblr

Let's just say I'm away on hiatus to dedicate all my time @ boycottxxxlove.tumblr.com, simply because I have been reblogging/liking all the posts that I like so much that it's taking up all of my time.

I might or might not update here, depending on whether I feel like it or not. I will promise this, and it may just as well be a broken promise. (I've always believed in: Promises are meant to be broken.)

Blogger I still love you, just that, Tumblr killed you.

x x x

P.S. @sherylinistic I know you'll read this, don't be sad kk HEHEHE I might come back after a while ^^ BLOG ABOUT YOUR BIRTHDAY PREASE!!!

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Big dreams

(Posted this a two days back in Twitlonger. I want this post to be part of my blogger a a form of back-up.)

After I was done with Handle With Care, my mind was bursting with thoughts, for about two days, and now I can't really remember as I'm tryna recall to pen it down.

1. I've been thinking about 爸爸 a lot these days, must be because of tomb-sweeping that day, like how Dajie cried so easily at seeing the very handsome and young photograph of him at the temple while I stood by her side not knowing what to do. I think she was the only one who cried. I tried looking closely at Mama's, Kor's & Fei's eyes, none of them were teary/red.

Thereafter every little little things triggered my memory of him. Like how this glass of drink I bought at the NTUC while shopping for Sis's BBQ (i never knew what's it called in Eng but in Chinese it's called 蛇草水 (?) which he used to sell and it was my all-time favourite drink because it was gassy & simply awesome!), how he held on to the old sofa for dear life because the floor was too wet thanks to me noobz mopping the floor and now the sofa is gone forever!

I don't know how does this link to Handle With Care. It just do. About life, death and everything in between.

2. I really really don't think I can take it being a mother. How selfless one can be to give it ALL for their child, straining the r/s with the other child, best friends, and even their spouse, resulting in a near-divorce.

Charlotte (not our dear Char-Lot-Teh), the mother in the book of Willow's & Amelia's, risked it ALL. I can NEVER take that chance.

How terribly wrong when negligence and the lack of love are mixed with rebellious, angry, and protective thoughts - Amelia became bulimic and inflicting self-harm, trying to cope with her feelings, for trying to feel "right". Yes as a mother we want the best for our child. I don't think I am able to give my child the best, so why let them suffer by coming into this world?

3. Then came a string of ethical/unethical questions of LIFE. Abortion. Pros and cons. What right do you have to end a life that was suppose to live? What rights do you have to let it live? So what if it's precious when the world is a horrible horrible terrible vegetable place to live in?

& if you happen to be Catholic? You cannot abort. So you are stucked with the child till eternity. What if you do abort? You'd be judged for being not religious enough.

(To hell with what others think seriously.)

4. The question that I have in mind since ages and it is reoccurring yet again: Is what you are fighting for, worth it, worth it all? Are you worth the fight? Are you really really worth it?

Charlotte fought so hard to get $8 million for Willow. Apparently, Willow was the most important person in her life and Willow was definitely worth fighting for. Yet, Willow drowned herself by accident. She didn't even struggle for her life. She couldn't anyway, or else her bones would break. So what does the $8 million amount to? Nil. Nothing. Zilch. Nada. Kosong (like the prata w/o egg)! They didn't even cash in the damn cheque!!

5. Anything is possible. Nothing is impossible. Don't live life with regrets. Live life without regrets. Live, and let live. Live. Laugh. Love.

6. Deal with differences accordingly.


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My bottom line (geddit, below the line?): Handle With Care is life-changing. I like (Y)! I really want to read more of her books. It's gonna be like, my Bible or sth HAHAHA kiddingz omfg.

Oh i just realized how much Literature brings joy to me. Sadly O's were a gone case ah. Shit la you Shakespeare, and Helena, & Hermia, & Lysander & Demetrius and your stupid love-potion! & Puck & Oberon & Titania & Theseus & Hippolyta (like hippopotamus like that -.-!) & Romeo & Juliet were only good because of Leonardo DiCaprio :D

I have big dreams that I want to achieve by the time I graduate from poly:

x My heart-shape polaroids on the wall
x My photoblog (nuff' said)
x Driver's license (if the 21yo rule is not valid)
x GPA 4.0 for at least one sem (no kiddingz)
x Travelling on my own and/or w friends (no matter how dangerous it is)
x Master Photoshop/illustrator/Dreamweaver/wtv
x Be my own columnist ^^
x Keep old friends and make new ones!
x Blog diligently, (even if via Twitlonger ^^)
x Be comfortable with my own body

Because i can't think of anything else to write,
x x

How has CATS helped me to be more creative

In my entire NPP journey, I must admit that CATS has been the most interesting and definitely, the most CREATIVE module throughout these seven weeks!

One of my most memorable lessons was during the presentation for our first CATS project - lo and behold - Peer Teaching of Thinking Tools!

In just one lessons, we learnt a total of four thinking tools, including my own group's!

Firstly, Group 1 taught the thinking tool - 6 Thinking Hats! Through this thinking tool, I've learn that there can be six different ways of looking at the problem, thus solving it with the most effective solution ever!

The 6 Thinking Hats are:

• WHITE which means INFORMATION
• which represents someone with all the details, research, charts, numbers, etc
• It is important as it is the quality that matters, not quality!

• BLUE which means OVERVIEW
• which represents someone who defines the objective of the meeting. 
• For example, the leader of my group could call for the meeting with specific objectives to go through during the meeting. Without it my team would have gone in the wrong directions, and that would waste a huge amount of time.

• GREEN which means CREATIVITY
• which represents the different and unique ideas the team can come up with to counter the problem, something no one has thought of before.
• Everyone is always on the lookout for NOVELTY. How important it is to come up with creative and original ideas that have not been used by others before?

• YELLOW which means BENEFITS
• which is highly important because in every situation there must be advantages and positive effects for it to be successful
• I have to always focus on the positive (+ve) outcome, effects, results, side of things, and not be a pessimist. "Always look on the bright side of life"

• BLACK which means CAUTION
• which can be useful in providing feedback on solutions that may not be a good idea
• Pause and ponder at what the team had come up with. Is it good enough to continue? Or are there loopholes that must be looked into?

• RED which means FEELINGS
• which is based on one's gut feelings, emotions and intuition, of whether it would be a good solution
• As the saying goes, "A woman's intuition is never wrong". With this in mind, it may be good to trust my instincts! I could get results I never thought I would! 

I began realizing that in every team, any member, at any point in time, could be applying these six thinking hats! I start to identify each hat with each member. Sometimes, one member could be applying more than one thinking hat! How amazing is that!?

It has greatly helped me to widen my thinking skills, thinking from so many perspectives. Usually, I could only be thinking of one solution from one angle. However, by thinking from so many angles, it could benefit me by stretching my thinking, tapping into the potential I never knew I had!!

Whenever I used this thinking tool to help me to solve problems, I am always reminded of how colourful the thinking hats are!!

Look at how adorable we are with the 6 thinking hats Group 1 made! 

I remember how cute those BIG heart-shaped shades are!

I have the smaller version! :D

*Laughs @ Thila* HAHAHAHA :D

At URA! Look Mr Tio, you did the *twist!* ^^V

My lovely and awesome classmates and group members for the projects!

I really have to thank my group members that we were all able to complete our projects on time, efficiently and effectively. I love all of them! ^^

P.S. Dear Mr Tio, hope you had enjoyed my reflections! Enjoy the photographs! Will teach you how to blog one day! ^^


Photo credits: Some were from Thila's and Jolene's Facebook! The rest were my own!

Jazmyne Gwee Yi Xuan
PO3 CATS NPP

Serenade me to sleep

So here I am again. Am listening to Secondhand Serenade/
Relient K, reminiscing about "good" ole times. It's funny and weird how I can remember all the lyrics after not listening to them for two years? Or was it three?

It's amazing what you can do with words and a guitar/piano. (Y)
As much as I wish to create something musically, I am lacking in the talent aspect of it, but I'm very contented enjoying with my inabilities.

"i've learned that there's to lifts to success. You have to take the stairs" or sth along that line.

There's more to life than you ever imagined.

x x x

More to come

It never occurred to me to post using iNickie. I was expecting a mobile web for it but it's the full site which I preferred. (Y) I know I can use mobile blogging but I'm not sure how the email thingy works so heck.

So I guess I won't be shutting down my new baby any time soon?

Anyway have a sudden urge to hurry get my own laptop. MacBook Pro here I come. Really can't wait!! Photobooth, tweetdeck, stickies

Yesterday was simply awesome!! Best of both worlds! (Y)
Am reminded of how people my age now who have started school (JC/DPA) are trying to cope with their work/friends, trying to balance etc, and I'm glad ytd turn out sooo well.

Huge thanks to Zhenlu for making me realise I did not regret my decision ^^ you did not realize what you've done. (Y)

A part of me wants to get NPP over and done with. Yet a part of me wants to look back in time and be proud of what I have accomplished. Yet yet another part of me wants to continue having fun with the awesome Orange Juice + Jadon + 7UP + the rest of the DPA kids.

I know I'm going to make the effort to cherish and treasure the friendship we have currently. I just need to keep believing.

You all can deft expect more posts from me, especially with iNickie :)

Ciao

x x x

Maybe, maybe not

I don't even know what to fill in this space anymore. I have too much on my mind. May or may not shut down this blog. After all, it's only 2 months old...

In life, it's either you know or you don't. What do you know? Does it really matter?

x x x

Half-hearted thoughts

WARNING: Mundane rants - Continue at your own risk


Today will be/is going to be a productive day. I'm not even sure if my grammar is correct. I feel so helpless. I feel powerless. Where did my confidence fly to? I want it back, pretty please!

I want to do well for my poly life, seeing how I did NOT succeed much in pri + sec life.. I want to achieve a GPA of at least 3.5. I need. I want to myself proud and everyone else around me. Fei got a GPA of 3.6(!!!!). At the same time, I want to have fun and enjoy what i'm doing. What's the point in life if you're only succeeding but not fully enjoying?

I want to do well for my very first assignment. It will be morale booster, it will be easier to keep up that way, because of self-fulling prophecy, if everyone expects me to do well, I will program myself to do it then? (Okay i think i'm trying to apply but i'm still not very sure gah!) Then again, what if I chose NOT to meet their expectations? Then this is the opposite of self-fulling prophecy? Is there a term for this?

Kind of wasted my whole day away yesterday. It felt like pre-O's, where I got mad at myself for not doing anything productive. Seriously. Need to kick this bad habit far far away. Put it in a box, closed it tight, locked it up, throw away the key, and then shipped the box to Pluto, the furthest planet/satellite away. Usually on Saturdays there's nothing much to watch on Tv, but yesterday there were a lot! Practically the whole day! So i was pretty much hopping channels, between the laptop and the tv, and not so much of completing my journal. ):

That was after my lovely brunch with Shermin & Sherlyn @ our egg&toast&lemontea coffeeshop. Yes we're regulars. We should have more brekky like this on a late Saturday morning, sharing our anecdotes and bits & pieces of our lives. Gonna see em again on Monday to celebrate Sherlyn's bday! Love ya all xoxo :)

Today will be better. It must! I know i'm only putting in half-hearted effort and it won't get me anywhere, so I'mma put in my 1000%, stop bloghopping, stop checking Twitter, stop refreshing Facebook home page every 10 mins. Stop. S. T. O. P.

& I need to start thinking like a SOCPSYC student and not dismiss it, like it's nothing. It's something. I need a deeper understanding of the concepts before I can really start writing. I need think. I need to understand. I need to know the difference between Halo Effect, First Impressions, & Stereotype. I need to think deeper. I need to use my brains more. I need S. O. S. Argh.

For now, I know that the Halo Effect is referring to an individual, while Stereotype is referring to a group of people. SO? See that's my problem. My thoughts are only on the surface. I need to go deeper. How now brown cow?

I'm not comfortable spilling out my thoughts to strangers.

I'm only one-fifth done? But it's only the quantity, not so much of quality? This is super frustrating!! ):

I better progress more today or time would be running out!!!!

P.S. I think i found Pete Wentz's facebook through Arin's. Both of em are awesome!!!!!

x x x

Shades of grey

I am a tad bit scared(?) or nervous to post because I don't know who's gonna read all of this and how they're gonna react. I know I can be all, who gives a fuck this is my blog i can write whatever I want and don't give a fuck what others think about me hell yeah to freedom of speech, but no that's not how reality works and I am pretty bothered by it. 

I don't like being alone. I start to think too much (-ve) stuff. I would rather not think but then that would mean I am dead eh? So I start to think about a lot of stuff. A lot.

Orientation camp & poly life made me miss secondary school life a whole lot. How safe, how comfortable, how fun I was with everybody! Seriously. And to have great friends you must be a friend in the first place. It's not easy. 4 years ya know!! Now it is a new year, new school, new faces, everything is damn freaking new and there's this sense of uncertainty and ambiguity I got which I don't like at all, a comfort zone that has yet to be achieved. Then again, that's how people grow. Taking the road less travelled. Taking risks. Taking chances. Grabbing opportunities that come knocking on your door. I'm going to grow healthily.

Shoutout to my lovelies which I did not forget for they are a bunch of lovely people I would regret forgetting: Jiayan, Miaowen, Tay, Clarissa, Diana, Yayah, Shermin, Sherlyn, Tzuying, Jong, Jaime, Haziq!! Miss all of ya v much! Any time ya all going out stay out longer then I find ya all after my school ends @ 3 or 5! The next time I see ya all should be to celebrate Sherlyn's 17th and before the JC peepz start school!! & PU trip!!!!

& then there's my mahjong kakis - Angeline, Derick & Zhenlu! Too bad I have school on Wed + Fridays if not since it's Derick off days we would be playing 9-10 hours like last time!! Now vvv hard to find a time to play alr ):

(Talking to Shermin now on FB CHAT and she's making me damnnn eggciteddddd and high because they have plans to meet on Wednesday which is super awesomeeee because school ends at 2.30/3 for me on Weds!!!!! CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YA ALL ON WEDDDD AFTER MY SCHOOL I hate you all for going to eat Popeyes w/o me D: Help me to tabao okay!!! )

& then there's Ms Tan which OMG you are seriously the sweetest teacher EVER!!!!

& then there's MG!!! Don't worry I won't forget about ya all ^^ Meet up again ASAP!!

& then there's Darl who is also as sweeet since foreverrrrr :

@boycottxxxlove Who exactly am I?

@heartstringx @boycottxxxlove You're my Darl!

What makes it even more awesome is that we're studying NEXT DOOR only!!! Meet up for lunch soon!


The new people, and whom I am proud to call friends, I've met so far from all walks of life are awesome!!!! & that is an understatement!!! There are peepz from 7UP - Jolene (who is in mass comm with me, high five babe!!), Alaine, Weiling, Clarissa, Helga Hema (hahaha), Gek Heong, Xue Ying, Meizhen, Zi Cong, Kenneth, Nicholas, Weihao, Yewliang, Matthew, not forgetting GLs - Rina, Cheri, Serena, Jasper, & Grayson *one Grayson clap*!! ^^ Orientation camp was definitely beyong ah-mazing because in the end we are all happy people with bonds that could not be broken! Okay cheesy much.

Then there are the FMS peepz (including Jolene :D) - Clarissa Sih (are you dead?!), Kristen, Tania, Arin, Siying, Ira, Kelly, Hafizah, and a whole lot of others which I wish to know better during this 8 weeks!!!

(Finally got a call from Yayah and I LOVE YOU BABE TTM!! For reassuring me!! Please call me again soon hahaha miss you xoxo)

OH YES I GOT A NEW PHONE NOKIA E63 SAY HELLO TO UNLIMITED SMSes!!! :D

"Writing has therapeutic effect on me." Hell yeah!!! THIS IS GG TO BE AN AWESOME WEEK AHEAD!!!

Not forgetting, Mama is going to BKK with Ting + Fei without me (!!!!!!!!) this weekend which means she'll be away for 4 days. WHOO FREEDOM!!

Okay tata for now ^^

x x x

11 days

This blog is as good as dead and being buried alive and cremated and then having its ashes thrown all over. I'm sorry for the lack of updates but my excuses are: lack of time and lack of words to put my thoughts into words fitted to be shown. What makes me even more miffed is that this is suppose to be a new blog with regular updates but I'm still NOT posting. -.-

Needless to say, the past 11 days of the 2k10 has been nothing short of awesome!!! Prolly except for today because of the ugliest hair cut since forever and I have to live with it to make new friends from all walks of life!! You know, first impressions do count but I hope i have the chance to prove my worth ^^ (OH AMMM GEEEEEEEE GAH!!!) Met so many peepz (Darl, my lovelies, MG, BV peepz, new friends etc) that makes my life so fulfilling!!!

I think i'm falling sick. Yes I am definitely sick.

Okay short post for now!!

x x x

2010

Goodbye 2K9, hello TwentyTen!!!