Shades of grey

I am a tad bit scared(?) or nervous to post because I don't know who's gonna read all of this and how they're gonna react. I know I can be all, who gives a fuck this is my blog i can write whatever I want and don't give a fuck what others think about me hell yeah to freedom of speech, but no that's not how reality works and I am pretty bothered by it. 

I don't like being alone. I start to think too much (-ve) stuff. I would rather not think but then that would mean I am dead eh? So I start to think about a lot of stuff. A lot.

Orientation camp & poly life made me miss secondary school life a whole lot. How safe, how comfortable, how fun I was with everybody! Seriously. And to have great friends you must be a friend in the first place. It's not easy. 4 years ya know!! Now it is a new year, new school, new faces, everything is damn freaking new and there's this sense of uncertainty and ambiguity I got which I don't like at all, a comfort zone that has yet to be achieved. Then again, that's how people grow. Taking the road less travelled. Taking risks. Taking chances. Grabbing opportunities that come knocking on your door. I'm going to grow healthily.

Shoutout to my lovelies which I did not forget for they are a bunch of lovely people I would regret forgetting: Jiayan, Miaowen, Tay, Clarissa, Diana, Yayah, Shermin, Sherlyn, Tzuying, Jong, Jaime, Haziq!! Miss all of ya v much! Any time ya all going out stay out longer then I find ya all after my school ends @ 3 or 5! The next time I see ya all should be to celebrate Sherlyn's 17th and before the JC peepz start school!! & PU trip!!!!

& then there's my mahjong kakis - Angeline, Derick & Zhenlu! Too bad I have school on Wed + Fridays if not since it's Derick off days we would be playing 9-10 hours like last time!! Now vvv hard to find a time to play alr ):

(Talking to Shermin now on FB CHAT and she's making me damnnn eggciteddddd and high because they have plans to meet on Wednesday which is super awesomeeee because school ends at 2.30/3 for me on Weds!!!!! CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YA ALL ON WEDDDD AFTER MY SCHOOL I hate you all for going to eat Popeyes w/o me D: Help me to tabao okay!!! )

& then there's Ms Tan which OMG you are seriously the sweetest teacher EVER!!!!

& then there's MG!!! Don't worry I won't forget about ya all ^^ Meet up again ASAP!!

& then there's Darl who is also as sweeet since foreverrrrr :

@boycottxxxlove Who exactly am I?

@heartstringx @boycottxxxlove You're my Darl!

What makes it even more awesome is that we're studying NEXT DOOR only!!! Meet up for lunch soon!


The new people, and whom I am proud to call friends, I've met so far from all walks of life are awesome!!!! & that is an understatement!!! There are peepz from 7UP - Jolene (who is in mass comm with me, high five babe!!), Alaine, Weiling, Clarissa, Helga Hema (hahaha), Gek Heong, Xue Ying, Meizhen, Zi Cong, Kenneth, Nicholas, Weihao, Yewliang, Matthew, not forgetting GLs - Rina, Cheri, Serena, Jasper, & Grayson *one Grayson clap*!! ^^ Orientation camp was definitely beyong ah-mazing because in the end we are all happy people with bonds that could not be broken! Okay cheesy much.

Then there are the FMS peepz (including Jolene :D) - Clarissa Sih (are you dead?!), Kristen, Tania, Arin, Siying, Ira, Kelly, Hafizah, and a whole lot of others which I wish to know better during this 8 weeks!!!

(Finally got a call from Yayah and I LOVE YOU BABE TTM!! For reassuring me!! Please call me again soon hahaha miss you xoxo)

OH YES I GOT A NEW PHONE NOKIA E63 SAY HELLO TO UNLIMITED SMSes!!! :D

"Writing has therapeutic effect on me." Hell yeah!!! THIS IS GG TO BE AN AWESOME WEEK AHEAD!!!

Not forgetting, Mama is going to BKK with Ting + Fei without me (!!!!!!!!) this weekend which means she'll be away for 4 days. WHOO FREEDOM!!

Okay tata for now ^^

x x x