Half-hearted thoughts

WARNING: Mundane rants - Continue at your own risk


Today will be/is going to be a productive day. I'm not even sure if my grammar is correct. I feel so helpless. I feel powerless. Where did my confidence fly to? I want it back, pretty please!

I want to do well for my poly life, seeing how I did NOT succeed much in pri + sec life.. I want to achieve a GPA of at least 3.5. I need. I want to myself proud and everyone else around me. Fei got a GPA of 3.6(!!!!). At the same time, I want to have fun and enjoy what i'm doing. What's the point in life if you're only succeeding but not fully enjoying?

I want to do well for my very first assignment. It will be morale booster, it will be easier to keep up that way, because of self-fulling prophecy, if everyone expects me to do well, I will program myself to do it then? (Okay i think i'm trying to apply but i'm still not very sure gah!) Then again, what if I chose NOT to meet their expectations? Then this is the opposite of self-fulling prophecy? Is there a term for this?

Kind of wasted my whole day away yesterday. It felt like pre-O's, where I got mad at myself for not doing anything productive. Seriously. Need to kick this bad habit far far away. Put it in a box, closed it tight, locked it up, throw away the key, and then shipped the box to Pluto, the furthest planet/satellite away. Usually on Saturdays there's nothing much to watch on Tv, but yesterday there were a lot! Practically the whole day! So i was pretty much hopping channels, between the laptop and the tv, and not so much of completing my journal. ):

That was after my lovely brunch with Shermin & Sherlyn @ our egg&toast&lemontea coffeeshop. Yes we're regulars. We should have more brekky like this on a late Saturday morning, sharing our anecdotes and bits & pieces of our lives. Gonna see em again on Monday to celebrate Sherlyn's bday! Love ya all xoxo :)

Today will be better. It must! I know i'm only putting in half-hearted effort and it won't get me anywhere, so I'mma put in my 1000%, stop bloghopping, stop checking Twitter, stop refreshing Facebook home page every 10 mins. Stop. S. T. O. P.

& I need to start thinking like a SOCPSYC student and not dismiss it, like it's nothing. It's something. I need a deeper understanding of the concepts before I can really start writing. I need think. I need to understand. I need to know the difference between Halo Effect, First Impressions, & Stereotype. I need to think deeper. I need to use my brains more. I need S. O. S. Argh.

For now, I know that the Halo Effect is referring to an individual, while Stereotype is referring to a group of people. SO? See that's my problem. My thoughts are only on the surface. I need to go deeper. How now brown cow?

I'm not comfortable spilling out my thoughts to strangers.

I'm only one-fifth done? But it's only the quantity, not so much of quality? This is super frustrating!! ):

I better progress more today or time would be running out!!!!

P.S. I think i found Pete Wentz's facebook through Arin's. Both of em are awesome!!!!!

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